2011年3月24日星期四

我。。。已经决定了。。。

素华,我看到你写的东西了。。。就让我们一起去面对吧。。。泪也流了,也都发泄了,要说的都已经说了,要做的也已经做了。。。你做的已经够多了,所既然他还是这样,你决定要放,那就放吧。。。不管怎样,我都会支持你,因为我看到了你的努力。。

谢谢你们的陪伴。。。有你们,我才撑到现在。。。真的很爱你们。。。就好像我第二个家,没有再比你们好了。。。谢谢你们的关心。。。。你们的关心和鼓励,我都很珍惜。。。而我呢,泪也留干了,心也受伤了。。。但我。。。决定不放弃。。。或许你们会觉得我很傻,但是,我不想带着遗憾。他之前对我的不离不弃,默默地为我付出,让我觉得他就是我要的人。。。或许他并不是最好的那个,也不是最完美的那一个,但是,他对我来说,是个可以陪我到以后以后的那个人,也就是我的未来。。。就好像素华说的,男生追你时跟一起后的态度完全不同,现在开始他对我可能不再像以前那样,或许会更加伤害我,但,我要尝试。。。我要为我们的未来在努力。。。

就因为是他,所以我想再努力。。。或许我并不是那么的优秀,但我会尽我的能力。。。希望他能看见,也能明白我的心意。。。如果当中会有很多挫折,也或许一切都顺利。我不懂。。。我只知道我会加油的。。。


薇:不要再偷偷躲进房里了,要哭一起哭。。。素华,chee keong也是。。。kei, 等你不减肥时,我们再去吃。。。

你们也要加油哦。。。=)


2011年3月22日星期二

Dreams......

Again...and again...i dream you again... i don't like it...NO..i should say that i hate it !!!

First time, you leave me ......my tears drop and wet my pillow... it's make me afflict... just feel like the whole night was difficult to pass it, summore the movement of clock was clearly... it's influence me for few days... i told you, but you laugh and console me that it just a dream... it was nothing... ask me don't think about it again... but, at the end, it's come true...

Second time, i smile... you find me... and we were had lots of sweet time... we do everything as usual... we are happy... i saw you smile happily... and those that you told me... it's touch... but it's just a dream...there's no more when the moment that i open my eyes and wake up... i know it's just a dream...but, it make my mood happy for whole day...

Third time, i saw you again...but, there's a girl beside you... she, is your current girlfriend... and i know her... should i tell her what i had passed by or just say what they are saying just rumor,don't believe it??? i don't know... by the way, i don't think that she will believe me and feel that maybe i just a people who want to make both of you to break up, influence the relationship  between you and her. when i heard that you couple with her, it's a joke for me... cause... she just a nobody... a nobody that both of us will say about when we talk about your friend... this joke was killing me and i realise that your taste really variables... and i still remember the comment that you give her to me, just a normal girl that no care about image,no make up,even seldom to dress up herself...she having a normal life which are different with us...this is what you said... but, at the end, you choose her...it's really funny but sad... sad that why my dreams will destroy by both of you...

anyway, it;s just a dream...just like what you told me when i 1st time dream you...i don't know what i will do in future...but, i don't think that i will help you to tell her that what people saying just bull shit...i'm not going to do that because if she believe you, she will not listen what i say no matter good or bad...summore,you expert in this...so, i'm not going to make myself trouble since that's non of my bussiness... hope that i will be ok today and won't influence by this dream again...

God bless me~~~

2011年3月17日星期四

one action can cause lots of problems ~~~~~

for me,maybe there was nothing...but for others,maybe they will feel that there are something wrong,it's crazy,it was terrible and so on...izzit there are so much differences between us??? now i realized that every action that we did,every word that we said,everything that we think about,even is every food that we eat also have their effects just as the pon and core that we said about...
but sometimes,it's really annoying that if what we do and think about is different with what they try to get the meaning from it...you will feel that you are getting crazy when keep on repeat what you are actually want to tell them...this is why people always said 'vomit blood'...
this is what i face today...i chat with my friend and he was angry even jealous...this is what i did...for me,maybe i feel tat there's nothing...but for him,not.maybe he have his own reason...and,i get it...finally,i was apologize to him...anyway,this is what i should do if i really want to settle it...summore,i also have my own fault...i should not roar like a lion...haha,it's funny to use lion to describe about myself...for me,if tolerate can settle a trouble between us,why don't we just do it...same to him also...everyone also have their good and bad...sometimes,i even hate about his temper...however,i still can be patient...'there's no worth or not,just have want or not',this is what he told me before,an i will never forget it...i don't like to think about people's bad...because i feel that we have to realise about people's good before we learn it...
he was a hardworking boy actually...although he was a 'king of cold joke'...disbursement without any returns attracted me.that's why i can see him that time...i like his serious face but i'm trying to accept and justice his funny 'cold joke'...summore,he really can fight the champion of 'cold joke' with my new housemate,davis hanghang..wahahahaha....i like to see them talk about nonsense and also with all of them...it's really make me hapi and smile,even is laugh...because of his 'joke',all of us also have topic to talk about,summore got show can watch...we really like a family,it's warm to me..and i appreciate him and also them..that's why i like stay at here compare to last time...
                                    omg,that's him~~~so cute~~~it's really make me laugh for whole day..



                                                                    Jogoya time ^^v

                                                              our 'family' tao's time :)
 from left to right... my sifu who teach me cook and 'sot' lengzai-xwei,sure with a princess-me,our walao girl-suh hua,our queen who expert in food-kei,a sadness king of ktv-chee keong

and............still have the 'cold joke'partner-davis hanghang...i'm not sure what's wrong with my laptop because his photo cant upload...what i can say just is 1 sentence,face problem... :) forgive me pls....
he is my new housemate...a talent boy...like his music so much XD

2011年3月15日星期二

你。。。终于看到了我的改变。。。

有付出就一定会有回报吗?我并不这么认为。。。你,后悔了吗?当你找我时,你问了我一句,“以前那天真善良的我去了哪里。。。现在的我让你觉得比以前冷血,奸诈多了”。。。
你对了。。。我的冷血,因为你而培养出来的。我的奸诈因为有你的教导所以才成功的训练出来。。。我应该感激你。因为你,我长大了。。。
我,只要拿回属于我的东西。。。我自在必得。。。我要你知道,没有了你,我并不会怎么样,我还是可以一个人好好的过。。。而且,我会比以前更好。。。
人本来就寂寞孤单的,这我早就知道。。。发生了的事,造成的伤害,是永远无法改变,也无法弥补的。。。我不会忘记,但也不允许再发生在我身上。。。
我的改变你都看到了,满意吗?这就是你所谓的“成熟”。。。但你一点都没变,还是老样子。
我,敬佩你。但也渐渐的看不起你了。。。你的所做所为都让我觉得卑鄙,但也让我觉得佩服。
无论如何,我已经把你“戒掉”了,而且永远不会再“上瘾”。。。