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        我，怎么了？为什么一大早就要发脾气？就只是普通的眼睛感染有点痛，去看一身不就没事了吗，又不是第一次发生的事。。。为什么我越要控制它，它就越不听话？

        它，又慢慢地出现了。。。情绪，都被它控制了。。。呼吸加快，手会开始颤抖，头会痛，甚至觉得很烦，很怕，很讨厌，很受不了。。。现在的我，情绪一点都不稳，就只想发脾气。。。

        我一点也不想要靠着安眠药才睡得着。。。也不想对别人发脾气，真的很抱歉。。。身边需要的，只是可以容忍我的人，而不是常常都不耐烦，脾气跟我一样的爆操。。。或许自己也应该少去接触人，免得情绪不好，脾气也一起出来了。唯有音乐，才能让我好过一点。。。

Somebody

      It’s was the first time, and also the beginning of the nightmare. People’s comment, usually known as ‘advice’ for them, were appeared continuously once your idea against those ‘advices’. Correct? Or wrong? There’s no a standard answer forever. It’s just a misery unless the effects come out. Furthermore, standard of determination for each person is different.

      When the fear appeared, the nightmare was started. You will start to scare to make decision, even do not have such courage to think about those choices. During this moment, loneliness and helpless came along with fearless. Where is the ‘somebody’? Who is the one which can be my ‘somebody’?  I found that there was a distance between us and those ‘somebody’ were disappeared continuously.

      I lost the way to move onwards. Somebody, can you just awake me from this nightmare?

      Seriously, I need a ‘somebody’.